LET THEM.

 

It's hard to set boundaries but at the same time, 

it is so peaceful and quiet. 

NOTE TO SELF

 

Keep the faith, self!

Don't let the day pass by not taking any action, don't let it keep on your thoughts. 

 

"Day one" is better than "One day".

Keep on grinding. Surely then by grace of God will follow.

 

MANIFESTING:

MAY I BE FREE FROM PROCRASTINATION.

MAY I BE FREE FROM MENTAL SUFFERING.

MAY I LIVE PEACEFULLY AND HAPPILY.

MAY I LIVE HAVING FINANCIAL STABILITY.

MAY I LIVE A BETTER LIFE AND HEALTHY LIFE.

MAY I LIVE FINANCIALLY INDEPENDENT.

MAY I LIVE BEING A KIND MOM TO MY ZABEE.

MAY I LIVE BEING A GOOD WIFE TO PAULO.

    

 

Lord, I surrender. I can't do anything without you. Nurture me. Protect me and my family. Not my will but yours be done.

July 1, 2024 

 

 

 xoxo,

janna_myloves 

WHAT AM I GRATEFUL FOR?

    In life, we tend to see things beyond what we have now. We always look up for the future seeking what is more rather than being content with what we have today. We keep regretting the past and self-blaming like we still have a choice to remake those past. I fact in reality, we cannot undo the past.

 

True enough, I AM THAT PERSON, not all but most of the time I felt ungrateful. Always seeking validations. I complained much. I AM HARSH. I AM TOO MUCH OF MYSELF. I AM WAY BEING TOO HARD ON MYSELF. And it made me unkind to others. I kept being too hard on myself because I tend to  forget being so grateful and forget to acknowledge the abundance of what I have in me today. I forget that I AM ENOUGH. All this time, I forget the people that matter to me are ones that just by my side. I AM KIND OF GETTING LOST MY WAY SEEKING FOR WHO I AM.

                              

  

Paulo, my pillar of support  and Zabee, my first born, my mini me, these two beautiful souls are proof that I should be grounded and reminded of what really matters. These two are the best thing of WHAT I AM GRATEFUL FOR, the best in life that I should ever looked up to. How can I ever be so ungrateful? Right? Perhaps this is the way I should appreciate more because I sometimes become insensitive as self-centered. Perfectionist where there's no room for error, as if I am born with it. Complaining, as if I have nothing in life but in fact I have more of it that I take it for granted. 

                                                                                     

The thing is I AM FULLY AWARE of what I'm going through. I know myself, I'm far being perfect. By then, I will remind myself to forgive myself too. And I should be loving myself more because I think that is the right thing to do. Love thyself. So that I can love more and give more.  It's way beyond self-improvement and personal growth that I will embark on. Perhaps, I see myself becoming a source of goodness to others. I am capable of radiating kindness and understanding to both my present and future self. I will fill the void in my heart with great joy once this self-acceptance found me. This loving kindness will lead me to a deeper sense of gratitude, enabling me to appreciate the blessings in my life with a more profound sense fulfillment.

                                                                                   

                               

 

xoxo,

janna_myloves 

PS. THIS WAS WRITTEN BY YOURS TRULY. IT WAS JUST AS A RANDOM THOUGHTS IN THE PAST MIDNIGHT ON JUNE 14, 2023, 12:59AM. AND REVISED, POSTED ON BLOG OCTOBER 14, 2023, 03:50AM. hehehe

1ST THING, FIRST.

  

Starting out something in your thoughts and taking it into action is quite a bit courageous.

Cliché as it may seem but this is gonna be my first step on making things up out of the blue, by creating a random blog content on this page. I don’t know what this may look like at first but I’m gonna make this thing rock! 

Have you ever felt this in your whole life wondering:

• What will you be when you grow up? 

• What are your passions? 

• What are the things that make you feel alive and  passionate about? 

• What steps are you gonna make to lift up your life? 

• Who are you gonna end up with? 

• What paths are you gonna cross to set that career growth? 

• Thinking about a lot of life, what is your divine purpose? 

Getting up everyday asking yourself a lot of this, keeps you wondering and wandering. Literally, overthinking keeps you sane but this makes you unhealthy over time. Am I the only one being like this or do any of you have the same feelings?

    Here I am feeling lost in my late 20’s because I haven’t felt the urge of accomplishments from what I am getting up into now. I still have to find my life’s wildest purpose. It's not that I’m not grateful enough for the love and grace that I have received from people that surround me. I have this subconscious mind that keeps telling me that there is something more for me to offer. Something more to prove of what I can do and to achieve with greater sense of fulfillment. Even though I’m uncertain on how I’m going to achieve this dream, it drives me to keep up everyday. I think of it as a puzzle I wanna really solve on my own.

 

The clock ticks reminded me every now and then to act now. I'll do it or I'm gonna die with regrets wondering what it will be like if I did something out of my comfort zone. Taking my time positively and waiting for something good sounds great but I’ll be honest, my patience is the worst of all. Having this kind of thing takes a lot of hard work, self-awareness, and making new habits. Even I, myself, am aware of what I am being into. This is a process where life makes everything worthwhile with plot twists and turns.  As they said, one day at a time because something big is gonna be worth the wait. Each day is gonna be closer to what I’ve been dreaming of.

 Live LIFE TO BE WORTHWHILE... because life may be uncertain to all of us or to me, one way or another, it could make us or break us into something good. I believe everything that the universe conspired will take place on its own. It's just a lot harder when I see things negatively, the turning point here is accepting who I was, who I am and who I will become. I am motivated to go through what I will go through and continue to try harder and even step up what lies ahead. This reminds me of taking life not for granted.  

 

xoxo,

janna_myloves