WHAT AM I GRATEFUL FOR?

    In life, we tend to see things beyond what we have now. We always look up for the future seeking what is more rather than being content with what we have today. We keep regretting the past and self-blaming like we still have a choice to remake those past. I fact in reality, we cannot undo the past.

 

True enough, I AM THAT PERSON, not all but most of the time I felt ungrateful. Always seeking validations. I complained much. I AM HARSH. I AM TOO MUCH OF MYSELF. I AM WAY BEING TOO HARD ON MYSELF. And it made me unkind to others. I kept being too hard on myself because I tend to  forget being so grateful and forget to acknowledge the abundance of what I have in me today. I forget that I AM ENOUGH. All this time, I forget the people that matter to me are ones that just by my side. I AM KIND OF GETTING LOST MY WAY SEEKING FOR WHO I AM.

                              

  

Paulo, my pillar of support  and Zabee, my first born, my mini me, these two beautiful souls are proof that I should be grounded and reminded of what really matters. These two are the best thing of WHAT I AM GRATEFUL FOR, the best in life that I should ever looked up to. How can I ever be so ungrateful? Right? Perhaps this is the way I should appreciate more because I sometimes become insensitive as self-centered. Perfectionist where there's no room for error, as if I am born with it. Complaining, as if I have nothing in life but in fact I have more of it that I take it for granted. 

                                                                                     

The thing is I AM FULLY AWARE of what I'm going through. I know myself, I'm far being perfect. By then, I will remind myself to forgive myself too. And I should be loving myself more because I think that is the right thing to do. Love thyself. So that I can love more and give more.  It's way beyond self-improvement and personal growth that I will embark on. Perhaps, I see myself becoming a source of goodness to others. I am capable of radiating kindness and understanding to both my present and future self. I will fill the void in my heart with great joy once this self-acceptance found me. This loving kindness will lead me to a deeper sense of gratitude, enabling me to appreciate the blessings in my life with a more profound sense fulfillment.

                                                                                   

                               

 

xoxo,

janna_myloves 

PS. THIS WAS WRITTEN BY YOURS TRULY. IT WAS JUST AS A RANDOM THOUGHTS IN THE PAST MIDNIGHT ON JUNE 14, 2023, 12:59AM. AND REVISED, POSTED ON BLOG OCTOBER 14, 2023, 03:50AM. hehehe